I just want to end this.
enough is enough.
everything is my fault.
alright.

I hide to cry

I hide to cry
because my weakness brings my tears
and I have no one to hold me close
no one here who loves me

and no one really cares anyway

I hide to cry
because I embarrass the moon
and she is my only friend
but she's too far away to hold my hand

and it really doesn't matter anyway

AGRH!!

Fucking food poisoning!!

you are right.

I concerned about how others see me.
I live for people, but not myself.
I don't like lose to anyone.
I want no one dislikes me.
I have strong demand for myself.
I seek for perfection.

I don't like people criticize on me,
even I know I make mistakes.
I willing to listen to them, I take their words,
but I would not make any changes.

I avoid from knowing others tell me what I should do,
I do rather figure it out by myself.
I hate the feeling when others already know,
and they tell me I should follow in their way.

I don't listen to what people say.
I even disobey my parents' words.
I would use my excuse,
I am the youngest.

And this sounds really wrong,
I actually realize it..
Just I could not go as far as I could,
I can't step out from my comfort zone.

No one and nothing can motivate me,
I am the only one can motivate myself.

I SHOULD START LEARNING ALL OVER AGAIN.

Its just me being CHILDISH.

EVERYTHING IS MY FAULT.

You all can blame me if u all want because the minute i decided to DIU CHAO with you means i will DIU CHAO with your friends too. Whatever is it YOU WIN alright!

(NOT INCLUDED SU,ABBY AND SARNY)

BUT OTHERS DEFINATELY.

your choice.

now you are single.
you can go for her.
i don't give 2 fucks anymore!
life is yours.
hope you don't regret being me.
you decided this time.
you never thought how i feel.
cause you always think i don't care how you feel.
so its really gonna end now.
hope you are happy for what you did.
not even a single word sorry.
you even thought you are right flirting around.
i bet its not the first time.
i know last time you forgive me , but it doesn't mean i will forgive you this time.
whatever you say now i won't trust you already.
like how you don't trust me.
that dirty girl will leave her for you.
trust me.
its just a matter of time.
its over..

'Cessmandy <3