What ever you asked for I had gotted it for you.
I was there every step of the way I defended you and everything.
You knew I loved you and yet you wanted to only use me.
I guess thats what happens when you fall in love with the wrong one.

wish I didn't have to miss you. If only you could be with me always. I know I could never be any happier. But then again, I know that the day will come when I will be able to spend my every waking moment with you. good night.

I miss Abby and Sarny..... <3>hope to meet them after my exam..

yes, its you.

I want to end this NOW..

You cannot stop lying.

I fucking hate you.

I will never regret...

Its over.

Ed Westwick (CHUCK BASS) <3

Su's Birthday @ Decanter

I NEED YOU.

Baby,baby,
I swear to you,
Baby,baby,
I'm here for you,

I don't know why,
why i did those things to you,
what went through my mind,
And i don't know why,
why i broke your heart in two,
guess that i was blind,

Baby how i wish you could forgive me,
just one more time,baby...

And i swear,
I'll be there,
anytime you want me to,
I'll be true,
here for you,
Don't leave me lonely,
cause i need you,

Guess i've been a fool,
Now i can see the price to pay,
I can't run and hide,
Cause i'm loosing you,
and my chances slipped away,
with each time i lied,

Baby how i wish you could forgive me,
One more time,
oh yeah

And i swear,(and i swear)
I'll be there,(i'll be there)
anytime you want me to,
yeah,
I'll be true(i'll be true)
here for you,
Don't leave me lonely,
cause i need you,

Baby,
Living without you,
will tear me apart,
When i know how it could have been,
But i don't care what it leads to,
let's make a new start,
and give love a chance to win,
cause,baby i swear,

Baby,baby,
I swear to you,
anytime you want me to,
Yes i swear,
Baby, baby,
I'm here for you,
don't leave me lonely,
Cause i need you, (i need you)

And i swear,
I'll be there,
anytime you want me to,
yeah,
I'll be true,
here for you,
Don't leave me lonely,
Cause i need you, (cause i need you)

And i swear,(you know i'll be)
I'll be there,(i will be there)
(i swear) I'll be true,(i will be true)
Don't leave me lonely,
Cause i need you,
Yes baby i need you.......

My Baby Boy.

I just want to end this.
enough is enough.
everything is my fault.
alright.

I hide to cry

I hide to cry
because my weakness brings my tears
and I have no one to hold me close
no one here who loves me

and no one really cares anyway

I hide to cry
because I embarrass the moon
and she is my only friend
but she's too far away to hold my hand

and it really doesn't matter anyway

AGRH!!

Fucking food poisoning!!

you are right.

I concerned about how others see me.
I live for people, but not myself.
I don't like lose to anyone.
I want no one dislikes me.
I have strong demand for myself.
I seek for perfection.

I don't like people criticize on me,
even I know I make mistakes.
I willing to listen to them, I take their words,
but I would not make any changes.

I avoid from knowing others tell me what I should do,
I do rather figure it out by myself.
I hate the feeling when others already know,
and they tell me I should follow in their way.

I don't listen to what people say.
I even disobey my parents' words.
I would use my excuse,
I am the youngest.

And this sounds really wrong,
I actually realize it..
Just I could not go as far as I could,
I can't step out from my comfort zone.

No one and nothing can motivate me,
I am the only one can motivate myself.

I SHOULD START LEARNING ALL OVER AGAIN.

Its just me being CHILDISH.

EVERYTHING IS MY FAULT.

You all can blame me if u all want because the minute i decided to DIU CHAO with you means i will DIU CHAO with your friends too. Whatever is it YOU WIN alright!

(NOT INCLUDED SU,ABBY AND SARNY)

BUT OTHERS DEFINATELY.

your choice.

now you are single.
you can go for her.
i don't give 2 fucks anymore!
life is yours.
hope you don't regret being me.
you decided this time.
you never thought how i feel.
cause you always think i don't care how you feel.
so its really gonna end now.
hope you are happy for what you did.
not even a single word sorry.
you even thought you are right flirting around.
i bet its not the first time.
i know last time you forgive me , but it doesn't mean i will forgive you this time.
whatever you say now i won't trust you already.
like how you don't trust me.
that dirty girl will leave her for you.
trust me.
its just a matter of time.
its over..

'Cessmandy <3

Drinking @ TTDI plaza

this cup was the joke of the night. i wonder why? ;) haha

SU and Me

Me , CK , Big Ken and Small Ken

Pao yu , CK , Big Ken and Small Ken

yup.. same ppl.

CK and Big Ken

smile. :)

Small Ken

=p

Pao yu and Me

haha

yay!

Cheers!

early morning.

I haven't been going to class for like two weeks. Today i went to class and the minute i entered , there were only three students but my lecturer are still teaching. I seriously felt so bad for her. lol. but is her job anyways. After all i'm not the only one not going to class :) .. CK and JIAJIA you all better go to class!! today i went. so i get credit for that.. ha ha. :p

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUMMY.
i promise i will be a good girl. love you always. mwahx. <3

if you just realise.

I can’t understand how some friends could do this. They say we’re all family together, but they’re not living up to it. Everyone can say we’re family, only true friends will actually take you as one.

Real family doesn’t forget, doesn’t leave you out, doesn’t take something like a joke when it’s not. They say we’re family but I really wonder if they could say the same sober. Things like these are something friends would care and they couldn’t as ‘family’?

Real family doesn’t give excuses. If you forget you admit, you apologise, you don’t cover, you don’t laugh away acting like it’s no big deal as though I’m not upset one bit. If you say we’re family, I could rush all the way back for nothing but you guys couldn’t just make a call?

Real family isn’t just said, it has to be done. If friends could care, family should care more, but do you?

thank you for everything.

THANKS FOR...

1. loving me
2. taking care of me
3. being there for me
4. scolding me
5. telling me who i am
6. doing everything i call u to do
7. the ring
8. the hugs
9. the kisses
10. breaking all my promises
11. trying to change me
12. crying for me
13. appreciating me
14. boiy boiy
15. sleeping in the cupboard
16. not trusting me
17. not getting enough sleep always
18. letting me release my anger on you
19. the letter you wrote on my notebook
20. your hair cut
21. respecting me
22. jealousy
23. 1 year and 6 months of happiness
24. telling me what is 'love'
25. keeping secrets
26. trying to understand my baby language
27. correcting me
28. reading this
29. leaving me
30. the memories.

<3 REALISE

.

I don't know why i'm not happy.
I thought i am suppose to be happy.
why?

cEss<3